i am not a violent person, i rarely get annoyed, even more rarely angry, even MORE rarely yell.  But yesterday my sister was just... grr...  it took so much effort not to raise my voice.  She gets home and starts accusing me of not pulling my weight with the cleaning (after ive just vacummed, mopped the floors and was halfway through doing the dishs... the ones shes left there for 3 days).  Do you know what made her start doin that?  The fact that she had to fix the couch cover (ooo pull it down, big task, dont strain yourself) and that I left MY cd on MY piano out of the way of everyone.  Then she comes over and starts goin through pile of my stuff, and being all indignatious, and when i go over to pull my folder of compositions (i am VERY protective of my music) out of her hands, she go's psycho starts hitting me, trys to kick me in the nads (i'm quick, and block her leg with mine) and then grabs my fingers and starts tryin to break em.  And then when i ask her whats up, she just starts flinging insults at me, hitting me again and runs off saying that i have anger issues.

My annoyance was mixed mildly with confusion at this point.  First of all, i didnt do anything, so it must be somthing else.  Usually i would care, or at least pretend.  But if someone cannot even have a valid argument, only yelling 'fuck you''bastard' etc instead of actually making an argument.... if they get PHYSICALLY VIOLENT toward someone, especially going for the groin on a guy.... i dont think they're worth chasing up on.  If someone needs help they can come to me.  I'm not going to give a rise to someone just so they can feel better.

otherwise, yeh, busy time cleaning yesterday.  Cooked a crappy lasanga (ran outta cheese... boo hoo) and then Alison stopped by.  I relised i'm never gonna be in a relationship because it seems that females are too comfortable with me.  She was stroking my ankle with her foot, while we were talking, and talks about anything.  Its not just her, other girls too.  She's got a boyfriend... of like 6 years, and they are sooo happy together, so its not a hint.  Mabey thats why girls usually fall for guys who are assholes to em... first the rush of rebellion and the smell of testosterone.... 2nd, the lack of comfort keeps it exciting.  So I should start being a total prick to people so I can get laid

Had my performance reveiw this morning... I'm gettin so much more responsibility!  I'm doing promotions and advertising... supposedly customers really love my problem solving style, so they're gettin me into complaints and returns... also i put forward an event, and now am organising it!  I'm  not gettin paid more or anything, but I love it... I'm also taking on more accounting details, as well as have been asked to design a new organisational system for stockkeeping.  And a co-worker said that i had (quote) "really good vibes", and am really stimulating.  In other words, I"M AWESOME!  ^^  yay....

back to work, catch you alllll later!